There’s a word that’s been on my heart since just before the start of the new year: lean.
It’s kinda random. I get that. Yet, the idea behind it (as I am going to share with you) is my theme for 2015. I have not perfected this concept, but it is something that I feel compelled to pursue in this coming year. Let me explain.
I worry a lot. The kind of worry that wakes me up in the middle of the night wracked with anxiety and fear. My mind will flip flop between cares as my heart races pounding at the walls of my chest. For hours, I’ll lay there praying (begging) God for relief until I fall back to sleep in mid prayer.
I’ll reawaken the next morning feeling like I’ve made it through a war. I layer make-up on top of the bags under my eyes in hopes to conceal the previous night’s battle. The morning is spent fueling up on caffeine so I can power through my day.
The day is not much better than the night. More worries. More anxiety. I busy myself as much as I can to distract my thoughts. I’ve found myself longing for peace– some relief from the constant barrage of uneasiness. Something to steady the waves and bring some calm.
I’ve tried calming my own storms. It only made things worse– the more I strived the more I felt like I was drowning. I couldn’t live like that anymore. There’s no way I’d spend another year, another month, another day, another second like that. Something needed to give.
In my sigh laden prayers, God told me to just lean.
Leaning means no more striving. It means no more busying of oneself. It means rest.
One of my favorite moments in the Gospel of John comes during the Last Supper. It’s this seemingly insignificant note about how John was leaning (or reclining) on Jesus. For me, this simple intimate act causes me to ask myself: “When is the last time I’ve leaned on Jesus?”
I want to be like the disciple John and just lean on the chest of Jesus. To hear His heart beat. To be that close to Him. I can’t allow these worries, anxieties and fears to be plaguing me any longer. So, I’ve started being more intentional. The moment worry comes in I begin to lean.
What’s the look like? Well, for me, it means immediately stopping and taking a deep breath. No distractions. No more indulging the fear. I quiet myself and close my eyes for a moment and pray a simple prayer that consists of “I trust you with this, Jesus.”
I’m not saying this is THE magic formula for anxiety, but I can tell you that it is causing me to be deliberate about shifting my focus from my worry to my Prince of Peace.
As I thought about this post, I was reminded of Elisha Hoffman’s hymn that proclaims, “Leaning, leaning, safe and secure from all alarms; Leaning, leaning, leaning on the everlasting arms.” His arms are strong enough to carry all our burdens and shelter us from the storm. He doesn’t need our help, but takes great joy in caring for us.
It’s easy to get caught up in the downward spiral of thoughts and endless “what if’s”. If you find yourself feeling overwhelmed or anxious or fearful take a moment to stop and turn to Jesus. It may sound silly or too simple, but give Him a shot. You may just find some peace and comfort in the fact that He can handle it. All of it.
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I love this! This is something I needed to hear. I struggle with anxiety a lot too. It is so hard to just trust God sometimes, although I know it shouldn’t be. Thanks for sharing your heart!
It sure is hard. I’d never belittle it and make it seem like it isn’t a struggle. It is, but I wasn’t doing anything. I was allowing it to have power over me, and this is one way I can shift my focus. Thanks for reading. Praying for you now that you’d have the grace to lean when the worry tries to come in an control you.
I’m leaning! So grateful I can go to the rock higher than I. Love this post! So refreshing!!
Thank you for reading and for letting me know you were encouraged. 🙂
Beautiful post, I am familiar with the what if syndrome. It has been a struggle to lean in and on. Yet He promised us and even asks us to bring Him our burdens. Thanks for sharing and continuing to be encouraging!
Thank you, as always, Charles! The “what if’s” almost kill me, if I were honest. They can overwhelm my mind and waste my time. But no more! 🙂 I appreciate your thoughts. Thank you for commenting!
Leaning on the everlasting arms…that’s a wonderful gospel music. I’m suffering with PTSD, anxiety,panic attach, etc… so I know the feeling; there are times that hard to avoid feeling hopeless. I have questions that simply cannot be answer with the things of this earth, yet i’m stubbornly continue to seek answers even I know God is the only One who can give my life back. But then, I just like you to know that your blog will help to encourage people and thank you for sharing!
Thank you for reading and commenting, E! It sounds like you’ve got the right perspective–use that stubborn streak in pursuing God. I know that isn’t always easy, but His word says when we seek Him with all our heart He will be found. So, we keep searching. We keep asking. We keep knocking.